Mies van der Rohe + Philip Johnson - Seagram Building - New York, U.S. - 1958
9:38// 36 minutes ago: Before leaving the bed, I consider how human alienation across the past 100 years or so can be attributed to two major trends: increasing distances between bodies and a somewhat paradoxical increase in the surface area a given individual might respond to or interact with. The optic has overwhelmed the haptic, risking the loss of our humanity in the process.
A young man comments: Marx would argue that the major driver of alienation is the fact that the majority of humanity has little to no control over their physical lives (they can’t determine how/what things are produced). Secondarily, we are forced to mistake things for people and people for things. The manner of exchange obscures the lives that produce and distribute commodities.
16 minutes ago, my rejoinder: I often consider how the rise of distributed manufacturing and robust networks of knowledge exchange and collaboration, are in the process of redefining the relationship between labor and what is produced. I would argue that we have a choice not to treat people as things. It is also important that we not treat people as objects constructed from our own fears and biases. Exchange is inescapable. I hope the breakdown of hierarchical production fosters more human collaboration and innovation. It is possible, I imagine, to be both high tech and high touch. In a way, I have spent the last 17 months of my life trying to make that point after mistakenly replacing, from a distance and through screens, an important person in my life with an object constructed from my fears.
Now: I am sorry S. and I forgive. It is never too late for us to be human towards one another and make peace. I truly and deeply love you as a human being. Leading you to become my enemy has been one of the greatest mistakes of my life. I am so sorry. I have seen and changed, in so many ways. Not even for a moment have I ever ceased loving you, more than these mere words on a screen could ever possibly express. Be well. I really do hope we meet again one day, brother. You are the love of my life, even if we never meet again. Thank you for the great memories. x^3
9:44// From fearing your worst, in part, I believe, I brought out your worst. I believe in our best m. We really have been and can be a great team. I will always love you and have your back, should you ever find it in your heart to forgive me. I am sorry. I have changed. My love for you is the constant signal amidst all the noise, nonsense, and nothingness of this mediated world of ours. I love you.
10:42// I love and miss you so dearly. I am sorry. I forgive. Be well m. 😔😘🐺❤️🌈🙇
10:55// I am sorry for how miserable and lost I got on that medication and booze. I was unkind to myself and then to you. When you left, I drank even more to try and dull the incredible pain. I am sorry. I have seen. I have changed. I stopped drinking altogether starting on the 15th until the 20th. I had two small glasses of wine the evening of the 21st and two small drinks last night. Before you lost all hope in me, there was too much of everything in my life. The constant noise, bad air, being yelled at all day, never relaxing enough to tell myself that things would be okay, too much of the prescription, too much booze in an attempt to counteract it, too much loneliness missing you, too many baseless accusations and stupid texts, I lost my mind in the tempest, but I have changed my one true love. I am so sorry. I really can maintain balance between love and work. I really can be successful for us without becoming a miserable spastic case. Losing you has been one of the most difficult experiences of my life, made traumatic by the way in which it devolved after that final weekend. If you can forgive my worst then, I can promise to avoid repeating it and surely forgive you. We were so amazing, in all three manners, at our best. That is the great team for which I fight, because I believe in our best, in our ability to change for the better, and in the beautiful future we are fully capable of creating. Thank you for helping me see. Please forgive me. I love you so dearly. Be well.