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10:22
And it was that easy too - seeing him in the front row, walking by him as we exited, letting him catch me glancing at him, syncing out steps across the quad, “Your face looks familiar.” I am fucking back. Sam told me to leave, but ended up scurrying away himself. I never deserved to be treated with such cruelty, even though I maintain my apologies. He has never apologized - he cannot stand to think of himself as one who does wrong - he will feel guilt and run away, but does not know how to accept forgiveness, to be happy for what he has. And, as the blonde said, “It is your building.” You do not own this town or me Samuel. My bad for asking if you were dating Amit. I just do not understand you. Your parents are so lovely for you to be such an unrepentant beast.
Most awesome night ever. I managed to meet someone while walking across from Mayfest. We walked across the bridge without fences. A new story begins. And what beautiful music - the lyrics of the following evenings written for people like me, not cold hearts like his. We know how to love. -
Menja ty v tolpe ne uznala
And it was exactly as I feared.
“You should go away,” when i foolishly asked. -
9:01PM
If I had known he was already going to be there I wouldn’t have walked by his place, would have taken the bus as planned on not been a sweaty mess. -
“I’ll give you fish. I’ll give you candy.”
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"I know I act like I just ate the western hemisphere for breakfast. But, down here in the boiler room, I know I need advice. And not the kind I get from Joey, or the Madison Avenue lot... who'll betray me as soon as my back is turned. No, I know when I come to the top of a mountain... I need you. Because you're level with me. You're my lifeline to truth. // [Redacted, though mutual FB friends could tell you.] // Can't keep anything alive up here. Dust in this city kills everything. Don't play with me. Don't hurt me. Don't hurt me."
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5:16PM I guess, when I know I’m going to be staring at a screen all day, I should wait until I know whether or not I’m actually seeing him before putting contacts in. Womp. 0-O
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Ohhhhh, who needs attention. <3
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I am so content here, the ducks below. Having reached the end or the beginning, either way, I have found peace… At 2:14PM the doorbell interrupts my post, I think it is him, but it is a guy who welcomes himself into my apartment and now I’m changing energy suppliers. Super awkward.
Love Tractor - “Venice”
2:39PM
On the upside, that’s one thing I had been meaning to get done. On the downside, my lungs are all irritated from the third-hand smoke of his mentholated cigarettes. Okay, let’s find that sense of calm again, begin breathing, listening to the water, looking at the trees. *inhale, exhale* The guy was taking texts while I was on speakerphone with different people. Very straaaange.
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8:27A
Radically better sleep quality here in the quiet country and fresh air. I feel like a new person, though my ears still ring from the din of the city. -
Purcell & Elmslie, Edna S. Purcell House, Minneapolis, Minnesota, 1913
